It’s How You Frame It

She took the long way home. Drove by  the house and down the hill to the overlook, a spot she cherishes and waves ‘hello’ to the lake often. Parking and zipping up her vest, hugging her homemade scarf close she waded through the snow to peak over the fence. The sun was setting and another car pulled up to steal the view. He stepped out, hood up and headphones blocking out the silent 5pm moment. She climbed the wooden structure, tapped the snow off her boots as she reached the top and peered around the trees at the ball melting away. “Nope,” she thought, “there’s a better view somewhere else.” Descending, she passed the hooded man with no eye contact, he was climbing the stairs after looking from the picnic table.

The wind blew and stung her ungloved hands. Shoving them in her pocket she sank through more snow and jumped up on the wooden table. Imagining the summer meals she was stepping on she looked through the trees to view the globe falling lower and lower. “Beautiful,” still not the best place. The boy on the wooden structure was snapping photos and throwing snow balls at the lake below. His mittened hands warm while he formed near perfect spheres.

She again broke through the layer of crunchy snow, walked around the wooden structure and paused looking at her warm car. She continued past it and leaned against the broken fence. Straight ahead was the horizon, a harsh line cutting the sky, dividing the eternities of sky and Lake–to the left a tree framed the sun perfectly. Orange burned violently through the sky. With each passing moment the circle dipped lower and lower below the line until it was gone. One instant it was there bright and the next it had disappeared. The man snapping photos from above missed the view she had seen, and surely she missed his view too. Cold, she hugged herself, not dressed or ready for this much time on the January coast she retreated to her car and warmed herself for a moment before driving away.

 

Parking, she looked behind her as she got out of the car, she contemplated going back–the sky had turned purple and red, morphing into something completely different. She had seen the ball drop, but perhaps she was missing the real climax. Perhaps she had left too soon. Perhaps the hooded man was capturing something more beautiful. What if the best of the sunset was passing this very moment? Thoughts of regret, anxious feelings filled her heart mourning the idea of what she may have lost. Settling in her warm living room with a mug of hot tea she flipped through the photos she captured. She smiled at how perfectly nature had framed her favorite shot. She appreciated the silent moments she had with the lake, the horizon and the sun. She’s learning to let go of what she might be missing and learning to love what she has.

 

Shit Got Real

I tend to ‘go big or go home’ in my life. Sometimes the two of these concepts intertwine–like right now. It took me three days to rent a car, pack my stuff, quit my job and land safely in snowy Michigan once again after the holiday vacations. But this time it’s for a bit longer. I made the choice to leave for many reasons but mostly I need to start moving forward in my life. As much as I like sitting on a spin bike for hours I don’t like not going anywhere and that’s how I felt. I tried, I failed, I experienced and learned a lot, but ultimately sitting in front of a computer where I was was not a good fit. I’m amazed and thankful for all the support I have in my life on both the leaving and receiving ends of this huge change I just made. 

For now I’m setting goals, one of which is to quit ignoring this blog–however my computer died (errrrr, I spilled coffee on it…). So I’m looking for opinions on iPad VS Surface for my newest device. 

I’m also trying to figure out what to do for my….BIRTHDAY next weekend. If you’re in the GR area hit me up I’d love to see you. 

But for now I’m job hunting and future life planning. Any and all life ideas are welcome. 

 

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Word Porn

So. If you know me in real life you know that I’m a big facebook user. If you don’t, you should probably LIKE The Sole Search Page and follow along, just to stay up to date on all the cool things I post. Most recently, I have begun following a page called WORD PORN. It posts a strange word and it’s definition. Most of the time the words ring true in same into my life. I often have to hold myself back from reposting it for fear of losing ‘friends’. The other day I reposted this:

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Vorfreude. Now, spell check is telling me that it doesn’t exist. I’m going to ignore that little red line and say that this word has been, unknowingly, a big influence in my life. In order to ‘get through’ the hard stuff I have seemed to have a vorfreude that I can fall back on. Whether it be an up coming trip, a race I’m training for, a friend visiting… etc. Right now I’ve lost it. Where did my vorfreude go!? Some one find my vorfreude!!!!

I now live somewhere, I have a stable job that I plan to hang out at for a while. While I may live in a living room (we’re working on that,) I’m in a pretty stable environment. Which is weird, and scary–but also kinda exciting I guess. Just weird. Let’s just stick with weird for now.

Anyway, I thought I would share this wonderful word with you in hopes that I find a vorfreude (I’m probably not using this glorious word correctly…) In other words I need to figure out something in the near future to keep me motivated for the current. Any ideas welcome!