You guys. I’ve slacked. I’ve been lazy and uninspired. I’m unable to travel at the moment, running through Chicago is not motivating to write about right now. I want to revamp, re-engage and re-up TheSoleSearch.com I literally just threw $26 back at WordPress to let me keep the domain name. So now I have some money down. Not a lot, but some.
And this should inspire me. I’m drinking coffee, in a coffee shop, I was up early and will be up late. These things should all be motivating to use my time wisely and get as much shit done in a day as possible. Time is precious and I’m not interested in wasting it away, not all of it anyway. I definitely just binge watched Stranger Things last night and that shit sucked me IN!
So if there are still any readers out there (hellllllooooooooooo?) Stay tuned for some changes. I’m def still searching for my soul, via my souls, but I want to tell you guys about it in a new way. I want to take you on my journey and help you make your journey a little healthier.
In the meantime, let’s catch up! Find me on the InstaGram (@sloanderr) and snapchat (username: sloanderr). Warning, I’m not very good at snapchat, and it’s mostly selfies of me drinking coffee…
I’m also really available via email. I want to help you get fit, even if it means we’re working from across the country or globe! (hint…hint…of the revamp!) Email me: Sloan.PersonalTraining@gmail.com
So. For the time being please be patient while I re familiarize myself with the internet, try to up my blogging game and get you some great information on how to be your best self! Because we all deserve to be the best.
Thinking about going outside, in the dark, alone, is intimidating. Flashing lights, blinking red reflectors, unseeable terrain ahead I take a deep breath and strap on my helmet.
I’ve rode bikes on wooded trail with a headlamp strapped to the top of my head, racing against the clock and pushing my teammates up the next switch back or following them down the final hill to the end of a race, or the end of that stage in the race. These moments were hard mentally and physically but I never once hesitated. I just did it.
Now, here in Chicago, I tend to linger at the bar after work a little bit longer. I have to psych myself up to re-attach my front wheel, unlock my U-lock that keeps the frame safe from crooks and I have to take a deep breath when I put the blinking lights on my handlebars and as I climb into the saddle I’m truly a bit afraid. It’s dark, kinda cold, the air is now damp and there’s a slight breeze that never seems to cease from Lake Michigan–I both love and hate that cool push of air.
But once I’m in the seat, once I begin peddling I forget that fear. There are fewer cars, the adrenaline doesn’t need to flow as hard as it does during the day; freedom is ahead and I’m rolling towards it self propelled and on two wheels. A ride home at 2am is a ride through a city that not everyone gets to see. It’s a quiet and calm city that during the day is rushed and stressed but at 2am she’s serene and relaxed. At 2am she bears her soul to those that will listen.
Freedom awaits at a 2am ride, however every time I have to saddle up and go I’m scared. It takes me a while to convince myself to go, but I always do and I never regret the silent moments we have.
I enjoy it. For me it’s more of a routine, it’s a ritual and an experience–a moment of silent bliss. Grinding the beans, pouring the hot water…waiting…pressing the grounds down to reveal a deep, rich, aromatic liquid. Coffee is a way to connect with my mind, check in and relax. It’s an opportunity to connect with someone else, it’s a tool to bring people together and get things done–or not. It’s a way to kill an hour before work or relax after a stressful day. The mug warms your hands and perks you up, as the steam gently rises it can fog your glasses and the smell takes over your senses and a feeling of joy can take over.
This is direct quote from my journal while sitting at Rowster’s in Grand Rapids this past Saturday. A conversation with my older brother is what inspired it. A conversation about quitting coffee. If you know me, you know I have a love for it. Hell, I have a tattoo that depicts my love for the stuff. So why on earth would I consider quitting?! My brother, who he himself has quit many vices and is a better person for it, thinks it will help me. Help me sleep better (kinda a ‘duh’), help me be more productive (I’m skeptical of this one,) help my moods, my skin and he listed many many other reason why I should quit.
So I’m going to quit coffee for three months.
I repeat. I am going to quit coffee for the time being.
They say (not sure who ‘they’ are…) say that it takes three months for a given substance to be ridded of your body. I’m going to journal about it, listen to my body, mind, soul and productivity. I’m going to attempt to blog (and not complain,) about it. I’m going to try and not take up any other addictions in this process. Right now my ONLY addiction is coffee.
An apology in advance: if you’re my facebook friend, REAL life friend or snap chat buddy I’m apologizing NOW for whining, maybe crying and probably sniffing your coffee if you consume it in front of me. I’m dreading the headaches and already missing my routine. If anyone has any good tea suggestions (decaf of course) I would love to hear them.
Wish me luck. Follow me on here and join me on this…sigh…journey as I say goodbye.