I’m The Worst

Seriously. Trying to be committed to this getting this site up and going consistently is like starting a new health and fitness routine and then all the ice cream in the world is in front of you–I’m having a hard time, you guys.

By trying to prioritize TheSoleSearch has taken a backseat. To what?! You ask?:

-Binging on political articles
-Personal writing
-Work
-Sleep
-Watching as much Shameless as humanly possible
-Drinking with my neighbor and watching the Daily Show
-Trying to find sunshine in gloomy gloomy Chicago

So you see, really important things. I’m not going to post this as a re-commitment to posting every week (I’ll TRY, I promise), but I am posting this to remind you that I’m still here, that if you email me I WILL respond (I promise THIS).

How about a Wednesday nugget of wellness advice?:

Remember to disconnect. Remember that you do in fact have two hands (not one hand and another that has a phone attached to it) I would suggest not taking your phone when you run across the street to get a coffee. Turn the phone upside down when you’re having a conversation with someone. Go to the gym, or yoga, or whatever–sans device. Just try it. I, too, will be making a more conscious effort to dis-harbor myself from my i-phone.

Finding, searching, processing…being

I’m finding myself lazy. I’m finding myself unable to move. I’m finding myself paralyzed with choice, the need to make decisions and figure things out. I’m finding myself more lost than ever…I’m finding myself saying that a lot.

 

I’m also finding myself really connected to inspirational quotes and those pretty images they are posted with on facebook. I’m finding myself reading Sera Beak’s The Red Book [A deliciously unorthodox approach to igniting your divine spark] I’m finding myself not rolling my eyes as much. I’m using phrases like “I think the universe is telling me…” and being completely serious. I’m looking for clues.

 

I’m laughing at myself when I fall over in my yoga practice, or after a full body workout when I can’t get off the floor—I laugh at myself, and then I laugh at myself for laughing at myself. It’s joyful.

I also cry. I cry when I can’t decide. Then I remember to rejoice because I have decisions to make and the ability to change them. I’m finding myself giving advice but not taking any—this needs to change. I talk a lot. I want to listen more. When I listen I need to absorb. When I absorb I need to put it into action.

 

Here’s to change. Here’s to listening to what, I think, the universe might be telling me. Here’s to covering my basis and doing research. Here’s to new adventures that will move me forward. Here’s to being scared, nervous, and afraid—here’s to relishing in life and being alive!

 

[more to come—processing]

 

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